Once in a blue moon

Once in a blue moon i come across something that i really love(that isnt a family member) and once in a blue moon I loose something that i cherish. I have just lost one of my most cherished friendships, now this tiny battle has been going on in my head since about december (little tine devil) "Just cut her loose,less weight to carry" (little tiny angel) " NO, try to fix your problems" yeah,thats right,FIX the problem,yeah mamma i got it, in fact i have had it. I try to fix alot of stuff i have no control over.Life isnt like a pipe,i cant just go to walmart and get some mighty putty and hope it stays,life is delicate,friendships are even more delicate,I really wanted to fix the problem(this is going to sound like im self centered) BUt i couldnt, i wasnt the problem(or the main one) it was her this time, she had done alot of changing,not the girl i was holding hands with in the 1st grade,this girl had diffrent prioritys now,and that was popularity,no longer god. I need someone to cling to, im running to god,knowing he will take me in(not that he hasnt already had me,its a metaphore) but the way im hurt now will be hard to forget,its like getting cut really bad,i am gonna need stiches,for awhile,it will hurt really bad,then the pain will slowly go away,untill it os nothing but a scar that hurts when ever i see it. Maybe,she will change again,stop cussing,and dissobaying so much(not that i dont,but she likes to) maybe,god will become her 1st priority,i hope he does,and soon.